Quiz Night

Thursday. Another day another dollar.  Tonight’s, or rather, last nights excitement was all about going to the local, hopefully hang around and talk to a few people and have a few beers.  The last few weeks that’s all I’ve really done is just mooch up and down solva hill and look for a distraction and something to stop me thinking about kari still.. nothing is working

I remember a while ago having a chat with my dad, him looking at me and just coming out of no where that Im a lonely person.  Yup aint that the truth, further backed up from yesterday.  My friends were there but in their “unit” with my mates girlfriends family.  Ok so there is a chance to mingle but the seating arrangement was in a circle so no chance to sit down and no offer of sitting down.  Two weeks in a row now this has happened which is fair enough in reality.  My company isnt the most sparkling and witty as per the “old days” so who can blame people for not wanting to converse with me.

It is a touch odd when you know you have friends but they are in their own world, after all we all have our own circles and time spent with family and that sets me to thinking. Did I do the same when I was in a relationship?  No.. Is that right or wrong.. I have no idea, perhaps if I had focussed on more of me and been a touch more selfish then maybe.. who knows…. and thats where I am now

If this… If that… To the point now where its beyond eating me up and looking for solace at the bottom of a glass, meanwhile her and this neil jenkins fella are living it up in happy land. (thanks facebook.. again)

As odd as it sounds I can actually remember the last tim I smiled, properly and I even have the picture to prove it (facebook) the last picture that we took together.

So why dont I go and get help for my now apparent depression. Well in short its not possible. The local counciling units can help me with support… in 6 - 8 weeks time.  The doctor cant prescribe anything for me because of my past medical history.

Add “Take Ownership” Option to the Windows Vista Context Menu

Add “Take Ownership” Option to the Windows Vista Context Menu

Error message when you open Windows Media Center TV Pack and tune to a channel that is listed in the Electronic Program Guide: “No TV Signal”

Error message when you open Windows Media Center TV Pack and tune to a channel that is listed in the Electronic Program Guide: “No TV Signal

Error message when you open Windows Media Center TV Pack and tune to a channel that is listed in the Electronic Program Guide: “No TV Signal”

Xbox News: Rumour: Guns ‘N Roses ‘Chinese Democracy’ track on Rock Band 2 - Official Xbox 360 Magazine

New York Times is reporting that Shackler’s Revenge, a track from the infamous Guns ‘N Roses album Chinese Democracy, will feature on Rock Band 2’s songlist.Advertisement:What makes this story news worthy is that Chinese Democracy doesn’t even have a release date, having suffered from numerous delays over the years. Recording for the album originally began in 1994.So consider this a rumour for now but if it’s true, then we can guess one of two things - either Chinese Democracy is close to being released or Rock Band 2 will never be released in our lifetime.

Xbox News: Rumour: Guns ‘N Roses ‘Chinese Democracy’ track on Rock Band 2 - Official Xbox 360 Magazine

Song list

Songs that just make sense in the world right now.

Pink Floyd - Wish you were here
Peter Frampton - Why my guitar gently wheeps

minibook™ Ultra-Portable Laptop |Specialtech.co.uk -

I really need to satisfy my gadget lust at the moment.  Being a road warrior as well and  the ideal geek who needs something because I think that it @might@ come in useful I came across this little Ultra-Portable Laptop….  Boasting WIFI, SSD technology, 3 x usb ports I really am struggling to find a decent fault with this for the urbanist warrior in me…

Movies - News - Gibson, Glover back for ‘Lethal Weapon 5′ - Digital Spy

Gibson, Glover back for ‘Lethal Weapon 5′

Gibson, Glover back for ‘Lethal Weapon 5′Rex FeaturesMel Gibson and Danny Glover are reportedly in talks to star in Lethal Weapon 5.Shane Black, who wrote the original movie, has penned a spec script for a fifth instalment, according to Hollywood tracking board TrackingB.com.

The new story sees homicide cop Riggs (Gibson), who is about to quit the LAPD, drag Murtaugh (Glover) out of retirement to solve one final case.The two leads are said to be interested in reprising their roles, although no deals have been signed.The first four films in the action franchise were released between 1987 and 1998.

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Oh Dear god no. The last one was so bad it might as well had been made in the 80’s  It completly forgot about the basis of the characters from the previous films and made them all “new age man”

Might as well let Joel Schumacher bollocks this one up like he did with the Batman franchise, wait a few years and then lets have a re invention of the fanchise in a popular hollywood stylee.

Next up we need
Another Die Hard
Commando
Cobra

Whilst we are at it.

Surprise! Grand Theft Auto IV hitting PC on Nov. 18

Surprise! Grand Theft Auto IV hitting PC on Nov. 18

People can expect to start playing Grand Theft Auto IV,
along with its “newly expanded multiplayer” modes, on November 18th if
they live in North America, and November 21st if they live in Europe.

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24: Exile

That funny feeling

Well after friday and an unexpected “hi how are you doing” I make it into work today by the skin of my teeth with that old familiar feeling across the chest.  The pain thats right down into the core knowing that she will be in touch again.  It will be along the lines of…

Hi
hi
how are you
fine ta, you
good thanks, hows the cat
ok thanks
**insert asking for something here**

To quote a phrase I am so fed up of swimming upstream all the time.  One days battles turning into another.  This stupid sick feeling that I get day in day out, bar the days when there is no “feeling” so to speak off.  When that link goes missing then I know that its because of this Neil chap and well.  Could go off into a tangent about life forces here but I wont for now.

More later I think

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