Smug cat news

Get in from a walk out for an hour and there is my beloved pet cat , smug, on the sofa looking all cute.  That is untill I sit next to him and notice that something is up.

He goes to move but his back legs arent working and there is that umistakable smell of cat injury that I have come to know over the last few years of owning cats.

He is now at the end of the bed with me not lookng well at all in some pain and breathing is a touch laboured.

Even tho kari has ignored me all night on some attempts to make contact, meaning that she has her own entertainment sortd i have text her about smug and she did reply.

If my cat goes then thats it for me.  That is the last thing i need right now is for my cat to go.  If he gets throught the night and I get him to the vet there is no way I can afford a massive vet bill right now.  Fuck.. all this on top of everything.

Will post more soon

Because I wanted it to mean something

Why am I just such a weak twat with regards to her. She always manages to pull things around to her way of thinking and having me apologise for when I didnt do anything wrong.  Did her family ask after me or see how I was doing. No, so why should my friends take sides and see if she is ok when she was the one having the affair.  I must remember more often what has gone on.  So hard to let go right now.

Not well

THe pain that i have been having just above my stomach but below my peck has gotten reaelly bad now so its a trip to the docs but just seem to have this feeling that im going to end up on frigging hospital, I hope that they finally have wifi else its going to be boredom personified.