Well he had to be bloody nice didn’t he. 

Well obviously of course that was going to happen.
So not long been home after spending a day out with the eastern European woman, her two kids and her husband.

This all came arraigned with few emails earlier on she really wanted me to meet him so he could help understand the business venture we are working on together.

Of course for once he happens to be and I think a genuinely nice chap. Funny, clever, built like the proverbial brick she’s house, good ideas et cetera, et cetera. In other words the ideal man for her.

It also appears that they do have quite considerable amount of money after just building a new extension and supplying the all the kids with iPads.

The two kids are actually really nice as well again not helping matters.

I think I got there just after 1 o’clock we were by the seafront, when back to the house, had a cup of tea and was pretty much invited to stay rained for lunch as well.

Thankfully I have two dogs who require feeding very precise times.

When it’s time to go she was quite keen to show me the path down to the lower area.

Unfortunately that doesn’t mean anything of a sexual connotation is just the lower part of the time.

We are all set to go and then one of the youngest wanted to come along as well and in her words she would’ve liked for us to have five minutes alone. Talk about rubbing salt into the wind.

As we were walking down to the lower part of the times I tried once again to get her to open up and maybe let me in a little.
I also the question “what would you do if there was no consequence?” She went quiet as she normally does when I think she doesn’t want to answer a question. It is an interesting one this because I noticed that she does this whenever I start getting to know her or try to find it more about.

I drop the subject moved on and we were idly talking and I could see she was getting cold and as much as I didn’t want her to go back home and spends time with her I wasn’t prepared for her, her kid am myself to catch a mild dose of hypothermia.

As walking up the hill we idly charts and I said so I wish you were you would let me in a little and she just smiled and then send ask me anything said to keep things light I asked some stupid questions just to make a laugh. We get to her door my soul feel that she didn’t want me to go in some ways and was a cute little cheeky wave as I made my way back to the car.

As I am always said the right thing to do is the hardest thing to do and to be honest unlike the last time I had an affair with a girl who is already going out with someone he genuinely seems like a nice chap.

My aim for all of this I think, is am just going to see where it goes and hopefully by the end of it, as I think she will, she is going to realise just how much he loved her husband and the wife that she has and won’t want to jeopardise that  

If I can help someone realise that there will be a worthwhile adventure.

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Well he had to be bloody nice didn’t he. 

We went for lunch again. 

Is fair to say at this time it didn’t go exactly’s me. I thought I was acting on all the little cryptic messages and hints that I thought she was saying about seizing the moment and if you gonna do something, seize the moment and do it.
Carpe Diem.

We met up and went for a little bit of a walk and parked, quite nice length one by don’t think she was really into it, I really don’t know I could just be completely overthinking things and we all know how well that worked out for me in the past.

Plaster, she worries and is really nervous is really quite sweet if I’m honest. I got as far as holding hands for perhaps a minute or two and that’s as bad as far as the situation went.

The food was okay and I think whatever we’ve had has now morphed into more of a business relationship. If it hasn’t it I’m just completely confused but the website is now live, I’ve gone ahead and launched it and making things up with it as I go along.

A bit of good news that I already have one potentially promising lead although as keen as he hears the me to purchase product from him he has sent me over any decent product shots yet.

Anyways back to the lunch.

She kept saying a few times that how do we do “this” and not upset anybody. Maybe she’s word about being seen with me? I completely get that,

With bunch finish we had back to the car, no hug this time around, and twice she leans into the back seat in ideal kissing range. Nope, nothing happened despite me looking at her and I don’t even think it registered with her. We get back to my work like seem to be, with obvious hindsight, pressing the fact that let’s just get out the way and then she firmly puts a foot down saying no not in this car. It’s good, she set a boundary and I respect that.

If I had to get to the obvious conclusion I think she’s perhaps lacking in confidence in some ways, she just wants to be listened to and work definitely isn’t doing a high-value what she has to say. She is a bright and smart woman 100% and I think that her been passed over for promotion at work when she is trying so hard to make an effort isn’t helping.

Got the fedistrict eling I’m just a bit of a flirt target on the side for he. Well might as well make the most of it. 

We went for lunch again. 

So. We went for lunch . 

It’s fair to say we have been emailing quite heavily over the last week or so.
Been anything overly serious or flirtatious, if anything I have tried my utmost not to do any flirting because as I’ve said before I am not very good at it and be may be she could actually be a friend in the world and friendships are possibly something I am lacking in my life right now.

Anyways I was a little bit surprised that on Thursday I got an email saying that her husband wanted to go and get something from town, she’s volunteered to go and pick it up and did I fancy meeting for lunch. I might be stupid but I’m not that stupid and before you know it it’s Friday afternoon, she’s picking me up from work, just around the corner so obviously nobody sees, and we make our way to a nice little cafe overlooking a river.

I made a point of sitting next to her because I wanted to enjoy the view, both of them. The cafe really does have a stunning view when you sat next to an attractive woman you kind of want to be in a position where you can admire it. Not so much checking her out but well it’s obvious she does a little bit of working out and is nice to see some muscle definition and all that. For a lady who has had two kids she certainly done an amazing job of getting into shape which is unsurprising considering she’s either running or going to a fitness class.

I don’t think I mentioned it but as if looking good, hammy a good body, having a wicked sense of humour is enough is also incredibly intelligent. She is lent to languages, learning a third, learning how to code with her kids on an iPad, researching things for work and a whole lot more. She is one of those annoying types who happens to be the complete package but of course is married with children.

The drive there was actually pretty funny as we hit the first roundabout I said to go left and she went completely the wrong way which is good because it gave me the opportunity to gently take the pace and become a running joke. She’s even admitted to me she doesn’t know why she gets so nervous arraigned me which I think is a good thing?

We arrive, pick a table after a few moments of sitting in the car with each other and I am starting to wondering should I lean or do something but I decided against that. It is utterly bonkers being like a teenager all over again LOL.

We make our way inside hand I intentionally pick a seat next to her instead of across from her other want to check out the view, both of them. She is looking stunning as always and there’s a really nice view out of the window.

Cough is ordered and Wi-Fi password obtained within a few moments am taking a look at her iPad pro and trying to work out white stuttering. Yes to top all things off it turns out she is a bit of a geek is well. The conversation soon turns towards her asking me why my single and I just say I don’t know. Percent unbeknownst reason I end up telling her about my time in Germany with Nina about being pretty much a really close and intimate couple for a long weekend but never having sex. FYI still bugs me what the hell did I lack the her not to drop in knickers I want to be banged senseless yet the moment I am away she goes into a bar, find an Irishman and in her words her knickers were off before she even got to his room.

The conversation then inevitably moves onto her feeling a little bit guilty about coming out for lunch with me and again I don’t know why I told her that another story. It was the one where after my dad passed I went on a date with a girl and it just so happens that girl worked in the emergency response unit away my dad passed away and hopefully I got the point across as if to say sometimes these things happen for a reason and sometimes the universe will throw two people together.

I am either half arsed attempt to try and tell her that there was something about her that instantly drew me to her but that would have probably sounded a bit weird and very stalker S. I think she took in the right way, hopefully.

Somehow we get onto the topic of the racks in which has a almost Espanol twang to it. In other words it sounds pretty gorgeous and I said something along the lines of you could see any word in it would come out sounding amazing. She says my name and it actually sent a shiver down my spine. Did you know that was going to happen always I have intention? Who knows but that precise moment I really could have just ripped all of her close off LOL

The say time flies when you’re having fun and it certainly did in this case within a blink of an eye an hour had come and gone and neither of us could believe time had flown that fast. We did start talking about when and where we could potentially meet up

With a nice hint from her to say we don’t have to do anything outlandish I should be quite happy in a car park somewhere watching the sea.

Looks like I have to go hunting for a tea flask and a tartan rug.

Referring back to my hastily research dwell sitting on the toilet and using Google knowledge about Eastern European women I tried to open the door for her and did the classic pushed when I should have pulled, typical.

We barely just get outside and she says “oh, come here” and gives me a really nice hug. I am not reading anything into this as Google said this is quite common with women from this area.

As I think about it now was writing this I have a stupid schoolboy grin on my face just thinking about it. She then says to me about is this supposed to happen? You know what it’s like you meet someone, get married, have children and that’s that. Her words not mine I just have no idea but referring back to video she sent me a while ago isolates just enjoy and sees what precious moments of happiness we can get because God only knows there are lots of miserable ones to be had as well.

We make the very sure walk back to the car and she still grinning away saying that she can’t believe that she’s this nervous and giddy around me. I think I look at her square on and say I know exactly where you’re coming from them before you know we are back in the car.

Stupidly I get in the car and buckle up why she is doing stuff in the back seat (I wish) and then it hits me like a sledgehammer that have completely forgotten my manners to get the door for her. I reach across and grab it anyway and apologise for my utter lack of modern manners she was okay with that.

Then she completely surprises me and gives me a brown l bag and says this is for your 4 o’clock.

This is the second time she’s done something really simple and small but it is actually not to be sideways. In the bag is a selection of healthy treats to have at 4 PM with my cup of tea. I’ve said it before and will say again is the simple things in life that can mean the most.

On a side note this does put pressure on me to try and come up with something cute for her and I think I’m going to try some baking. Yes I know but I am quite good at making biscuits actually.

My only response is kind gesture was the simply say you are amazing and I’m sorry I keep calling you that that you really are. Testing arraigned cancel I’m going to try and find what your fault, she says she has many and I so want the you go been perfect again, what do you mean she asks, being part of the way perfect is knowing that you aren’t.

Yes I know that was completely ham-fisted way of paying a compliment but I’m really not very good and the saw stuff

We get back to work and as we drive past the office she looks up and sees one of the top floor offices and says so in so works there so I take it to a small spot just round the corner where I can get out the car and she can drive off.

So there we are, we hug and just as we’re breaking the hug I give a kiss on the cheek. Just something nice and non-overdoing if that makes sense. Well you should have seen her blush and go bright red for yet another time we’ve been together. Cheekily I then just say well I might as well do the other one now and believe me it took every single thing I had not to go in for the full Monty.

Yes this is in my traditional downbeat, oh woe is me blog by want to share a nice thing that happened today. Going out for a decent food with an incredibly attractive woman who just happens to be a bit of a geek, switched on and funny makes a very big change in my world.

In my head I know she is married and is probably the typical bought his wife syndrome, and somebody comes along who takes notice of her own values what she has to say and actually listens to her and all that jazz.

So basically I am not in anyway shape or form deluding myself but to spend a bit of time with her and nothing necessarily needs to happen then I think I’ll be okay without.

After all the good ones are always taken.

So. We went for lunch . 

The website pitch 

Really I should have known better than to pitch my iwebsite idea on a Friday afternoon when someone had just got back from a meeting of North Wales..
I’ve l been given the almighty fob off balance the idea “seems interesting” and I left the room a few minutes after I entered, after showing him the mockup limeade of the website, explaining the running costs were practically minimal, my knowledge of the average spend per customer and a few ideas of to increase it, I left the ring with “we will see what we can do”.

I know exactly what that means and it means nothing is going to happen.

Nobody should have done and what is always pain in the back of my head is that I should have just done this on my own anyway. I should have approached the company I work for ask the staff discount and just done it on the side with full transparency. But this is what I get to try and share ideas and make other people rich other than myself.

The reason rhino I am so obsessed with money is that I am quite a bit of arrears with my friend is just about to skyrocket. This is due to some considerable arrears thanks to metering my head in the sand and the finance she’s going to start using an estate agent to manage the property which means even more money.L

To further compound by monetary issues a couple of credit cards have now been defaulted on which means that the end of May ever getting the mortgage and more monthly payments. Which is why I am annoyed that my potential website idea in all likelihood probably won’t go ahead.

So I’m thinking well what trouble am I going to get into if I start up the website of my own accord. They have the option to have the system for themselves and they chose not to take it.

If I’m trading on the a completely separate entity and donating a percentage of profit to the company (I can’t go into why I would do that just yet) but I don’t see what the problem would be? After all they already sold in shops owned by other people to wear with the issue live? Would it be that it is because the employee or something different?

Anyways right now it is back onto the Internet to try and find the world’s cheapest van I could make into a potential motorhome

The website pitch 

I hate doing audits

Blood the hell! Making a mistake is one thing but making a mistake with a work colleague who has an obsessive-compulsive disorder is not a good thing.
Back when I first started I was given the task of clearing out the old IT equipment.

Making sure everything was auditors onto and archaic access database and then arranging collection and all that other stuff.

The problem is I did most of the work and I say most of the work because having no idea of how to use their own bespoke, written in-house database system would absolutely no documentation it months that not everything got locked.

Over the last few months I have been able to blank my way out of not knowing exactly what has gone where.

Of course I have tried chasing up the company that came and collected all of the kit but they just fobbed off saying it can take up to 6 weeks.

The problem here is that I doubt that you know what was our equipment because when they loaded up onto the van this certainly didn’t seem to be any segregation of items.

This means no we have an infantry with about eight desktops, five old laptops, networking and various monitors all unaccounted for and guess who shoulders this lays on. Mine of course.

I am not making excuses but it didn’t help that some things were already documented to be disposed of, others weren’t in as I said this stupid database which nobody knew how to use.

Of course what I should have done is what I would normally do is write all dying in a spreadsheet and then collate things afterwards but I am sick to tired of having to do double data entry. There should be a system in place to cope with this and of course I know I am complaining after the fact but still.

All the time that I have known there to be a problem I have been plotting to were coat a solution but this isn’t helped by my colleagues distrust in the helpdesk software. Whenever I ask about what is interested I get a load of generic reasons such as “it is always being updated and this new problems”, in the past we had troubles with it, “there was this one time” so on and so forth.

When I asked what can I do to bring the trust into this software the conversation always seems to go in a different tangent or direction.

Because of this distrust I am not wanted to work on the system and try and get it optimised towards how we need it if anyone out there knows the spice works helpdesk software you know exactly what I’m all about.

The old system relies on an acid number. An acid number which is a sticker and not saved into the BIOS of the PC why is this important? Because spice works won’t pick up information that isn’t there and that references machines by it is domain name sellers very little in the way to cross reference. The only two similar things onto different system is the serial number but that’s a long laborious process of going through searching, finding, copying and pasting to try and get some parity.

No because the old system hasn’t been updated in the longest while it means that the whole host of data is wrong like location of a machine or the monitor or the owner, has it been scrapped or is it “to be scrapped”.

I came to the notable conclusion a few days ago that is pretty much looking like starting from almost the start which means going around and touching every bit of desktop and monitor within the main building. Then with some clever XL magic making link data between the two. Yes I could do this in SQL may be but the time taken to learn how to do all that nonsense well, I am is all just get on with it.

The idea here is that you have a new set of data as of 1 November which if you take that away from all data that gives you a list of things to snog marry or avoid.

Well at least it should dig me out a of a bit of a hole but course there is always a twist in the tale.

I am exactly halfway through my probation period despite an email coming into everyone in my department and including my boss to say it a three-month review.

I really could have done without a mistake like this happening right at this point and I don’t know people will share the same mindset of okay and mistake has been made but let me rectify and get my way when I am trying to rectify.

Don’t get me wrong both my colleagues are very good technically but all this nonsense of creating our own custom SQL system in-house just seems like a bit of overkill when we already have a platform in place. Yes I am kind of tidied to the idea of using spice works even if only for a probationary period but just because I like it doesn’t mean I won’t abandon it the moment it no longer suits our needs.

There are third-party software solutions out there which will take infantry on a huge level of all the IT equipment but as I was listening to my colleagues I was wondering do we really need to know what is on each machine in a static database? Yes we need to be to see what software is on a machine no two ways about it but to have that for archival purposes, really?

Anyways in 6 o’clock at night, I hate the fact the clocks have gone back in our as it means I am walking through the words dictating this wondering where exactly my two dogs of gotten to and pondering can I do a run of 80 mornings to come in and try and put things right?

I hate doing audits