Once again a thursday night turns into a time where it all goes to shit. Every thursday critisicm seems to be levels at me from all sides and once again Im on the back foot, perhaps because I dont care any more. To see people back away from opinions and such but it does feel ike each and every time its time to take me down, but how do you take down a man who has nothing….
Continue reading “Uniqueness”
One of the things that has been learnt, yet again the hard way, is to never write a letter and then send it straight away when emotions run high. There are so many things that run around in this box of mine that today has been hard mentally and once again taht sick feeling in my stomach rears its head again..
Continue reading “emails”
After I came across this blog page it just seems to sum up how I feel most days now. The first line of where it says ” my life is kind of passing me by right now ” just rings true in so many ways for me. I spend a lot of time walking and wandering here and there with no great purpose, almost looking for something with a sense of despair that finding it wont happen. At least not around here anyways, well.. That doesnt make sense because I paused when typing it so who knows what that is indicative off.
Continue reading “Reflectiveness.”
Its 3.43 at the time of writing this and normally on a saturday this is the point where I would stuble in, roll over and fall asleep not wanting to hug her because… fuck… why … sheesh doesnt make sense. Get into bed and hug the damn woman….
Continue reading “4am, coldness, stats and rantings”